This has been a very emotional day for me. This is the 4 month anniversary of Trek’s death and we are also packing up to move. We leave our Swiss Family Robinson house tomorrow. I am not too sad about moving on from Pai, but something about moving really bothers me every time. I think its because the whole point of us traveling and exploring was to show Peyton, Conner, and Trek the world, now that Trek is missing sometimes its like a slap in the face when we go to explore a new place.
I have been packing all day and the number of times I have broken down are many. Trek’s stuff is all over this house even though he never lived here. We travel with 2 of his little t-shirts, his favorite blanket, his ashes, his 3 Brothers go to the Beach book, lots of picture of him, his morphine just in case we ever need it for an emergency, and we use his suitcase.
Most of these things are stuck in different places of the house and over time get covered up by stuff from us just living. Today they were all uncovered, that combined with his angelversary was just too much.
I really miss him.
So I was going to write about our exciting plans for the next week. But then I started looking at pictures of my baby and I found some from one of my favorites nights with him that I never wrote about.
Trek just 6 weeks before he died in Texas when we very visiting my grandparents cabin.
Trek 12 months old in central Texas
a teeny little steakhouse and soda shop off of the highway in the middle of nowhere that my grandparents took us to. It is only open on the weekends and the only way to find out about it is by word of mouth
waiting for our steak
only in Texas
Peyton and 2 freaky indians in the entry way, Conner would not sit by them
me and Trek walking around taking pictures, he did not want me to sit down:) I love this old stove
Conner came outside with us because he did not want to sit down either. I thought these lights were so fun!
after our amazing steak we rolled ourselves next door to the ice cream shop-there is always room for dessert
it had the cutest gift shop, i was so glad we were traveling and did not have room because I wanted to buy everything
me and Trek being silly
our cousin Jared ordered a root beer float
Jarrett, Grandaddy, and Granny talking and enjoying their amazing milk shakes
my snuggly sweet Trek