Kickstarter update-We have 6 days left and have over $4000! We are so excited to see how many Following After Trek books we are going to get to print! Also we are going to be on the news today at 4pm on KWTX in Texas you can watch it live here.
Trek would have been 18 months old today. Even if he had not been sick and we had not celebrated monthly birthdays, I would have taken notice of this day. 1 1/2 years old. He would not have felt so much like a baby any more, he would have been eating his own happy meal, running everywhere, and maybe would not have like to ride in his baby carrier anymore preferring to explore by himself. He would have been a toddler, with little shoes and hair to comb and toy cars to drive around on the floor. He would have been saying mama and daddy and maybe even Peyton and Conner by now. I daydream some days about what he would look like and what he would be doing right now if he had lived, if my baby was still alive.
But most days I just remember. I remember and smile and my heart swells 10 sizes at the thought of him. I remember his big blue eyes, his soft blonde hair, his wide angelic smile, the connection we had when he nursed, and how he fit perfect in my arms.
Happy 18 month birthday sweet boy
Oh my goodness ~ just love the pics! He is the most precious lil’ angel – earthly and heavenly! Every time I see that 3rd picture, I grin ear to ear…just love the sexy smirk! Happy 18 mos, sweet baby Trek! Love y’all bunches!
me too, i love that picture, it is how I remember him and his sweet little face. love you
Hey Chelsea,
I commented before on another post once about not having a credit card… and I’m sorry we don’t have pay pal, either. I know you’ve way, way exceeded your goal, so it’s not as if I think you need our contribution…. maybe it’s more for me than it is for you, I just wanted to be a part of something beautiful like this.
I wonder if you would be interested in visiting our church, if you pass through Bangkok? I am sure others there would want to be able to support your project, too. I don’t mean to make assumptions about your faith or beliefs… if you would not be comfortable with this please accept my wholehearted apology.
Anyway, our church is Newsong Bangkok (http://www.newsongbangkok.net/), just in case.
Hi Robin, you are so sweet to invite us to your church and to want to donate to the kickstarter. If we come to Bangkok we definately want to meet you guys, so I will let you know! and about the book we might have the books printed in Bangkok so if we do I will just deliver one to your door:) xoxo
Happy Birthday Trek! Send mommy, daddy, Peyton and Conner some extra special love.
we need it! thanks Jill-xoxo
I miss that sweet little boy so much & cry each time I see his beautiful face. Love and miss all of you whole bunches:)
i know mama, it is so hard, worst thing in the world. we love you
Happy birthday sweet boy, send lots of love to your amazing family!!! Xoxo
thank you so much Danielle. much love
Happy 18 month Birthday sweet Trek we are all thinking of you today, Your Mama and daddy are amazing people thank you for the gift you have given them, I think they could use your little angel Kisses today xoxo
awww, thank you Kelly, that is so sweet and true. xoxo
He has the best little smile in these photos. Thinking of you<3
thank you so much Kate-xoxo
Oh I love him so much, the most beautiful beatitful baby boy ever. I know you miss him more than words can ever say. I love you and am sending extra love your way today. Love you all bunches!
i know you do amanda, you are such a special auntie. love you
Happy 18 month birthday sweet angel!
such a happy, chubby, handsome baby. sending you guys lots of virtual hugs!
thank you so much Marie, he was so chubby before he was sick, i like remembering squeezing his squishy thighs:)
Dear Chelsea,
Such sweet pictures of your precious little one. I think anniversaries are so important for the healing process. Thank you for sharing today and know that I’m thinking of you all today.
Chelsea, I’m in fundraising and a while back we talked about your wish to create a new foundation for granting wishes to babies. Yesterday, I spent the am with colleagues in the not for profit world; their advice to you was to work with those “make a wish” or special grants national organizations first. It would be so valuable to explore this when you decide to move forward. You can collaborate with them and perhaps they have a similar program in mind or are developing one. You’d partner with them, their already existing 501(c)3 status, their national resources and networks and their strong national presence. I wanted to pass this on for your and Jarrett’s information.
Thinking of you from your Ohio friend,
Connie
Hi Connie!! what a great idea! I will totally check into that , it makes so much more sense to do it that way since parents will already be contacting them anyways since they are already established. I will email some of them! thanks for sharing that with me. xoxo
That sounds great, Chelsea and now you have a link with your interview to share with them.
Your Ohio friend,
Connie
great idea about sending them the interview!
Happy Birthday Little Nephew! We Miss you!
thanks uncle jordan-xoxo
Oh Chelsea I know your heart hurts that he is no longer in your arms. Sending you lots of love and hugs! How exciting about the news, I will be watching!
thank you so much Jen, i miss him so much. he was just perfect. and thanks about watching the news!!! xoxo
Happy Birthday Buddy.
thank you so much Liz
Love and hugs for all 5 of you on Trek’s 18 month birthday! The nursing pics always make me smile xx
thank you emma, those are my favorite ones too and my favorite memories
Gorgeous photos – his smile is so beautiful. Happy Birthday sweet little man xx
thank you so much Lisa, I agree, I melt when I see his sweet smile
Happy Birthday sweet Trek! I think it’s beautiful and important to keep track of how old Trek would be and what he might be doing….what a way to remember him and maybe that’s what is happening in a parallel universe!
I agree Tanya, thank you so much for that thought, I dwelled on it all day. xoxo